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 Carol's Thoughts My thoughts on life as we wait for the arrival of our first child, Katey... (and a few other odds and ends)! |
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Tuesday, March 20, 2001It's a Girl!!
Introducing: Katelyn - Born: 3/16/01 - Time: 8:56:00 AM - Weight: 8 lbs. 5 oz. - Length: 21 1/2"
Wednesday, March 14, 2001I am SO bored! This "waiting for baby" business is horrible. I've finished everything that I need to do for work, so now I'm pretty much just filling a chair here. I keep telling myself that it's better than sitting at home, but I'm starting to wonder. Maybe I need to take some days off, because this is silly.Interesting question that Deb raised about having relationships with people that have different beliefs than you. I can't imagine how boring life would be if I surrounded myself with people who were just like me. No, I like variety. I like to learn new things. I like to stretch my brain out, so that I can expand my own way of thinking. It's a lot more fun that way. Karen, glad to hear that your MIL was helped by the consultation. Hope everyone is okay. Wish I had more thoughts to express, but I'm too slap-happy to even think for long spurts of time. LOL Take care!
Monday, March 12, 2001I'm still here... :-)Excellent weekend. My mom came down to spend the night Friday, since Rich had to work Friday night and all day Saturday. On Saturday morning, I showed her how to get to the hospital, where to go to get to the birthing unit, etc. As we were leaving, I reached into the pocket of my coat and realized that Rich had forgotten his pager, so I called him on the cell phone in order to tell him that we'd bring it to him. Keep in mind he didn't know what my mom and I were doing that morning. So what came out of my mouth was, "Hi honey, it's me. Mom and I are here at the hospital, and--" I hear this HUGE gasp on the other end of the phone, and then it dawned on me what that must have sounded like to Rich. He thought I was in labor and already at the hospital! LOL It was pretty funny, but I felt badly for giving him half a heart attack :-) Misty and Sue - I have to agree about "Betrayal". It's definitely slower. Do you think that Nora's pushing it by trying to publish so many books in a year? Karen - I like the new graphics. Deb and Cathy - sending lots of hugs to you both. Found out that the glider Rich and I ordered for the nursery is delayed by at least 2 weeks! Yikes! I better come up with plan B, since Katey should be here before then. Hmmm... It's cold and rainy here in Kalamazoo today, but I have to agree with Heather that Michigan is for the most part a terrific place to live, especially here on the west side of the state. Spring is almost here...I can feel it!
Friday, March 09, 2001Well...I went to the doctor today, and he said that I'm 2 centimeters dilated. His exact words were, "Well, the baby could come tonight or in two weeks...there's just no guarantee." I'm sleepy this afternoon for some reason. No big plans for the weekend, except to read the new "Betrayal in Death" book. Yes! Hope you all have a good weekend. Will keep you posted...
Whew! I'm doing MUCH better than I was last night. Man, was I bummed that I couldn't participate in the big anniversary chat over at Jixemitri. Thanks for missing me, Misty! *sniff* I appreciated the help you tried to give me too. I need to talk to Rich about getting a better computer at home. Shana, did you drop hints to your husband or did he just surprise you with a new computer for your birthday? Also, big thanks to Deb, Tina and Sue for being so understanding about my "motherhood funk" the other day. I'm glad to hear that I'm not the only one who worries about passing on these gene-things to my child. :-) Oh, and Misty and Sue! I didn't know that you two were JD Robb fans! I'm headed out to get my copy of "Betrayal" tonight. Now that is definitely a cheerer-upper. How's that for a word? Heather made a good point about needing to look at the positives in life, even when things look down. I need to do more of that myself. So here are my positive thoughts for the day...tomorrow is Friday, tonight is popcorn night while we watch "Survivor", spring is almost here in Michigan and hopefully so is Katey! Hope you all have a great evening!
I just want everyone to know that I tried and that I'm sitting her in Michigan with real tears right now. Happy Anniversary anyway!
Thank you for the support yesterday. I appreciate it. :-) The sun is shining, I'm feeling better, and tonight is the "big chat" at Jixemitri. What more could you ask for from a day anyway?! *g* I've been having lots of practice contractions, but I'm not ready for the big dance yet, I guess. Hmmm... Hope to chat with a lot of you tonight!
I am so tired today. I can hardly get my little fingers to work while I type. Sheesh! You know, I have a great relationship with my mom. I really do, but it continues to amaze me how much influence/control she has over me, despite the fact that I've been married for 8 years. All she has to do is put a certain "tone" into her voice, and I immediately question my own judgement. It's so stupid. I'm a grown woman, perfectly capable of making my own decisions. And yet, I still revert back to asking Mom...just to be sure. That really irritates me about myself - the fact that I don't show more cajones and lead my own life. In fact, when I think about it, I tend to let everyone around me lead me from decision to decision. Where's my independence? Where's my confidence? I can't remember who asked the question now about what role you played in your family, but I never did get around to answering the question. Today seems like a good day, because it fits in with my mood. In my family, I was ALWAYS the compromiser, the one to make things right, the "good" one. My sister is 12 years older than I am, and my brother is 8 years older. Ann is a complete introvert event to this day, whereas Blair is a complete extrovert. Coming along so much later in life, there was always the unspoken expectation between my parents and me that I was their last chance to get things right, thus I ended up trying to compensate for all the things that Ann and Blair did or didn't do. When I was 25 and first married, this all caught up to me. I went into a horrible depression that took me 3 years to kick...not the easiest of ways to start out a marriage. What kills me is that I know what my tendancies are, and yet I still fall back on these stupid ways of submitting to everyone else's ideas, opinions, etc. I guess my biggest fear is that I'm somehow going to pass these weaknesses onto Katey, and that's the last thing I want for my little girl. I want her to be strong...compassionate, yes, but definitely able to make up her own mind and to know her own heart. Those are my thoughts today.
Well, I survived the last alumni event, the one I was so stressed over last week. I still only had 30 people come, but those that were there sure had a good time...a lot of free food and drink. Can't beat it, I guess. Karen, I like your new graphics. Very stylish. *g* I was really sorry to hear about what's happening with Ron's family. Let's hope his dad pulls it together and comes to the session! Tina, belated "congrats" to your daughter. One small step for a girl, one giant step for womanhood...or something like that! Cathy - Congratulations on your anniversary this week. I'm pretty psyched over all of the new stuff and the new stories each day. :-) Danielle, excellent job on the graphics. You ladies rock! Hope all of you on the east coast are warm and safe. It's snowing in Michigan today, but not even a drop in the bucket compared to what you all are experiencing. I feel so out of sync and far behind in everything. Gotta catch up soon or all be 'losted!
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| Though I've borrowed these graphics, the thoughts and opinions here are mine. All Rights Reserved. (copyright C.Conklin 2001) | |||
The Graphics are Courtesey of Nancy at Angel's Web Graphics
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